I'm sitting here
. Outside. It's raining, and there's lightning and thunder all around me.
It’s always a challenge for me
. Because I'm afraid—or rather, I have a deep respect—for the forces of nature. Before the flash.
Actually, before the very same power that is within me
. As I now know.
Something that would have been unthinkable a few years ago
. And it's still a challenge. Time and again, I am confronted with this and challenged by the forces of nature.
To tap into my strength and not be afraid of it
. Respect is okay. But don't worry.
For a long time, I didn’t understand what they were trying to tell me
. Last year, I finally understood.
They showed me what kind of strength I actually have / am
. Connected to them, and just how powerful and extreme that is. An unbridled power.
They show me how to use them, so that I am no longer afraid of them or of my own power
. But it remains a challenge.
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“I’m hopping through the water
. My mom in the mudflats behind me. It's a little cloudy. Far away on the mainland, thunder rumbles. But it's far away. Still, I happily run toward my dad on the beach, where he’s walking with my brother.
It’s the first evening of our summer vacation on a North Sea island.
Completely carefree, I run toward my dad
. I am 8 or 9 years old. I’d already been through a lot by then.
Still, the sea is where I belong.
When I reach Dad on the beach, I take his hand and hop over the swimming buoys.
Everyone is shouting around me
. I look around, feeling confused. A woman is lying a meter away from me. Burnt. Her husband on top of her. Her two small children were crying.
My mother, my brother, and other people took care of the family and the woman.
I don’t have many memories of that anymore.
My dad drove me to our shelter.
I felt sick
. The top of my head and my feet were burning.
From what I’ve been told, I was hopping around next to Dad when I suddenly fainted
. When I came to, all I could hear was screaming.
A bolt of lightning had shot through me and struck the woman next to me.
Only my closest confidants know about it
. I rarely talk about it. I’m not writing this here to cause a stir or stir up drama. For me, it’s a revelation.
I was told later that the woman had survived
. But I knew they only told me that to calm me down.
Ever since then, I’ve been afraid.
Of thunderstorms, and that someone might get hurt because of me or that something might happen to them.
With every line I write, this becomes clearer and clearer to me.
It wasn’t until years later that the significance of this event became clear to me
. For me and the path ahead in my life.
Ever since I began consciously engaging with myself and my existence here on Earth.
It happened again last year
. That's actually unusual.
Lightning struck a tree a meter away from me
. MO, my van, and me underneath it.
All the vans and RVs around me have broken electrical systems
. Nothing happened to us.
And with every initiation into my power comes new awareness.
Little by little, the stories and the associated fields of fear dissolve
. Gently, but always a little bit.
I recognize and am being trained.
Lightning—concentrated power all around me—a special expression of fire—surrounds me.
Atlantic – the power of water there so striking – in the quality of unbridled power.
I walk with these energies
. I am these energies. And as long as I don't recognize and accept that, I'm afraid of it.
That came across very clearly.
I am being trained
. Taught. To be these powerful, extreme fields/energies, to hold them, and to act within and through them.
“The one who walks with these powerful, intense, unbridled energies.”
I would like to take this opportunity to thank the being who chose the words for this, for your true recognition and insight into me.
This text, my story, may be an invitation to take a look at what you’re afraid of and whether it isn’t actually the fear of your own power.
Perhaps I also frighten you
. Because you sense what is intangible and beyond grasp, and at the same time, it crackles within you because your very being, your cells, remember.
I am a being of extremes and walk with these unbridled energies.
The people / beings who come to me and find me are also either in extreme situations where nothing else works anymore, and / or have these very same powerful forces within them
. or. They are, without realizing it.
Most of the time, they’re even deliberately kept small.
If that’s the case, believe me: You are capable of moving worlds and galaxies—and so much more!!!
Sarina